Yerrrr why you 2 so gross?

Like seriously, boy why you so cheap + stupid + childish + loser?

Girl why you so stuck up + think you rock + show off + loser as well?

Then why you 2 like then dont like then like again, might as well dont like/stay in like?

HAHA so cute ohhh

Then why both so lifeless?

Dude, so weird hahahaha.

But one big fat unsolvable stupid question, WHY ON EARTH DID I EVER LIKE A LOSER LIKE THAT MAN?

Why on earth did I circle my life around him, like LOL! FARGAIN STUPID

What have he got that I have to like? OMG

Maybe it's the materials you know what I mean ;)

But no I'm not that kinda person nope.

So why?

Doooooode, I feel so grossed out.

Damn I can now admit my taste was bad.

It's ok, it has improved now.

It's UNREACHABLE mahahahhahaa.

But someone reached it already ♥

I wanna import that person wherever I go man! :(

Bah, got stung by jelly fish then allergy to the venom. Itchy puas man! =.=

Whoa! Siwon looks awesome hereeeeeee.

Stupid ariel lin zap daoooo.

I DISLIKE HER NOW!

:D

Sheena peeping at the guest. CUTE!

He should pick something his own size. LoL

o.O! HAHAHA!

TODAY!

Edmund & ronald picked me & sis

Brunch

Pool

Movie

Bobo land

yoyo

edmund's house.

K.O!

I Realised I Made A Huge Mistake The Moment I Got On The Plane & I've Never Forgotten How It Felt.

The Feeling Of Running Out Of The Plane Yet Impossible To Do So.

The feeling of screaming yet knowing it will not do me any good.

It's something I could never forgive myself for doing.

See I am someone who would never ever regret her actions & choices.

I am someone who will never ever handle things irrationally & childishly.

But I can never seem to be rational about this one choice.

& I can never seem to take this one choice maturely.

This is the one choice that I cannot seem to stop regretting.

I have never ever in my life said that I hate my life.

But when I'm there, thats the only thing I cannot stop myself from thinking about.

It's hard to understand how I'm feeling unless you lived the life that I lived when I was here at home & live the life I live there.

But one day, I will & surely will make sure I set my life straight again.

I will make sure I'm able to wake up anticipating challenges of the day that is set for me.

I will make sure I'm able to wake up not having to feel any regret for what I've decided.

I will make sure I go to sleep not having to dread waking up.

I will & won't stop looking for alternatives till I succeed.

Watch me shove everything back into your faces doooooodes.

And I'll do it with a smile like I never smiled before.

Sweet dreams

Our tickets

YER!!! This is to die for man! NO FAIR! :(

This is Amy, hahahahha... her leg freakin long.

Trust Me When I Say I Will Put A Stop To This





How we all dread going back to that place.
How we all wish it wasn't real, it's only a dream
How it has affected us.
How it changed our lives.
How it took away all the things we love.
How it turned us into people we're ashamed to be.
How many tears we shed because of it.
How many thoughts of ending it all that passed through our minds.
How many times we lied to ourselves in order to get through the day.
This, is not what a person have to go through.

Bye Bye Bitch, Hello SooWenYi




I'm so back! :)
I love this feeling like nothing changed.
Other than the fact that my friends are having SPM & I'm not.
That I cannot change.
And the fact that everything's gonna end pretty soon cannot seem to leave me alone.
So yeah, I really need to make the best of my time here.
But I finally feel like myself.
No more anger, sadness, hatred.
Im full of love, smiles & laughter again.
I'm able look forward to challenges, trials, & life ahead again.
I LOVE IT!
This place & the people bring the best out of me.
I get all the love I need here that even though I'm not in love, I feel in love.
It's all about others & not myself.
This is the real me.
I enjoy putting others before myself but I have become someone so selfish when I was back in that evil, foreign & mean land.
Now that I've found myself again, I'd like to keep it that way.
But It's November the 3oth, & I'm so scared right now.
I'm left with a months time man.





Now That I've Found Myself, I Wish That Things Would Just Stay This Way.

Childish Moments, Foolish Acts




I used to set this song as my alarm when I was still that stupid young girl.
Sometimes I would get up crying because this song is so sad!
And it's my alarm so that means it's the first song of the day that I listen to.
It's a very meaningful song to me then.
It was my favourite as well.
But I really din't have to use it as my alarm did I? LoL
It's quite stupid because I spoiled my own day by using it as my alarm.
Get up straight away bad mood already.
No wonder I was such a sad kid.
LAME!
I'm so much cooler now. Hehehehe.

The Farm & Us





Yo! Dad brought me, sis, Jeremy, Tanya, Ivan to the farm yesterday.
It started to rain when we were half way there but stopped just in time for us to cross the river.
I LOVE THE FARM.
Life seems so simple there.
Not much to worry, not much to care about.
I climbed the langsat tree to pick some langsats but I was kinda stuck at the same place.
Whereas the worker was like walking all over the tree like its a flat ground or something.
He's an insane jungle dude.
Dad climbed the tree too.
After that we went over to the other land across the river.
Mosquito conquered that land man.
Got bitten heaps.
But yeah we had fun.
Plucked some chillies & limau hijau for mum.
And helped dad pluck some rambutans to bring back home.

My Parents, Your Parents, Our Parents




My mum defines a mum.
She spoils me by giving me freedom that exceeds what I need.
She does this hoping that I will learn to know my limits.
She gave me even more freedom since I left this place for boarding school.
She understands that I want to get out there each time I come back.
She provides me with what I asked for.
Sometimes it's too much & it's not the things I need, its what I want.
However, she does not hesitate to give her lectures when I get out of hand.
She is not afraid that I will get angry of her.
She is not afraid that I will hate her for stopping me.
She is only afraid of not teaching me enough.
My mum has a heart full of love for her kids.

My dad defines a dad.
He works so hard that he often neglects his health.
The one & only reason that makes him do what he does?
Is to provide enough for his kids.
Is to provide a better life for his kids.
He is the funniest & coolest dad ever.
He is humble & honest.
He tries his best to provide a comfortable life for his family.

This much love is often neglected by us kids.
We concentrate so much on our own lame problems.
Problems like girl boy problems, which is the lamest.
Problems like which bags, clothes, shoes, pants, dresses we must have but cant buy?
We haven't even start to earn our own money & we're worrying bout all this when our parents work so hard yet hesitate to buy the things that they like.
Our parents already have a lot to deal with outside yet they devote the rest of our time to us.
The least we can do is, not making them worry about us, our studies, what we're turning out to be.
Think about it man.
Our parents deserve all the love we have to give.
They deserve all our respect, all our time.
Do you spend more time with friends than your parents?
Do you know that they miss you when they don't see you at home but they don't say it because they understand what you need and want you to be happy.
Do you show enough appreciation to them?
A little thank you, good morning, good night, I love you mum & dad is not very hard to say is it?
But the impact these little words make is big.



& if you don't know what you're studying for, do it for your parents.
Because they deserve to see the awesome results.
Then they'll know what they're working for is worth it.

Yiing & I says Adios Amour




That person's such a loser, never can get anything right, after so much, spoil again.
Si pempuan tu also I kahsian.
We should be friends man, the girl & I.
What am I doing?!!
I'm going to stand up now & help you feel like what you are, a loser!
And you think you're so great. o.O HUH?
What am I doing man, like seriously?!!
I am so much more than this.
I din't even have to be sad to begin with. erm lol??
Now I'm really puzzled with my decisions all this while.
What was it for?
Why did I choose to do so?
Weeiirrdd.....
Now thinking back no longer makes me smile, it just makes me go EEEEWWWW?
I don't regret though.
I learnt a lot.
Hello! I'm in KK, and I'm having the time of my life.
Adios kamu.
Yiing & I says adios amour'

Separations




Had a great great great game of tennis yesterday, & jogging by the beach.
AWESOME.
Started working at Dr. Vivian Lo clinic also.
It's interesting but sometimes can get a bit boring.
Today went to school, it's my "last day of form 5"
I feel so at home in school man! =/
Can't believe its ending already.
Everyone will go their separate ways.
Lives will change, people will change.
I wonder how it will be like when everyone meets again.
It'll be interesting to know.
I can't believe we're graduating already!
Ok, I know I'm not but I would be if I DINT LEAVE!
Things just happened so so fast!
Seriously it was like yesterday that I was still in First Step Preschool.
And now, those who were with me then are all so grown up.
They've all grown to be young men and women.
The way time passes, is just too scary.
I LOVE CLASS OF 2009!
It's their last day also, so everyone had class parties.
OH! 2012 is amazing!
The guy is freakin man & heroic. =D

Folded some gauze.

She's mixing the mold to take the impression of someone's teeth to make a crown.

The AMOUNT OF INSTRUMENTS a dentist needs.
CRAZY A LOT!

First day, AWESOME!
Wanted to go tennis & jogging with mum in the morning but slept too late last night.
This morning got a wake up call from Edmund to go eat breakfast with them
But was freakin sleepy.
So ended up sleeping again.
Sat on the warisan-one borneo bus for the first time with sis! :D
Not bad ah the bus. LoL
Night time went to dad's farm like 9pm something to collect his fruits.
The air there is SO FRESH!
And the breeze is so cool.
We plan to go camping there one of this days :D
Second day awaits!
TOMORROW MUST WAKE UP TO JOG & TENNIS!

Interesting & Challenging Trip Back





Im home! :D
Had an awesome awesome awesome trip.
Sometimes I get satisfaction from stress.
Weird aye?
I had 2 luggages, a laptop bag and one bulky hand luggage.
I traveled all the way by mrt, then met up with aunty somewhere called Tanah Merah.
I have to admit shamefully that I was smelly due to all the sweating. I felt bad.
It was really really tiring because I had to move my box to the store room
Then the luggages were really really heavy.
Actually they were overweight.
I din't wanna take a cab because I knew it would be a difficult trip without a cab and I wanted to challenge myself.
Taking cab means I'm a loser. LoL
What's a challenge if it's easy? :)
When I got to the airport, I knew I would have a problem with the check in because obviously, I had overweight luggages.
But no stress for me, I knew something will be worked out. ;)
It's good to have an innocent face, plus I purposely wore school uniform. HEHE!
You know how people tend to treat students nicer ( cause we're young )
So yeah, the only unfortunate thing was that my counter lady was this "abuse-my-authority" type of person.
She die die also dont want to let me pass.
I know she's doing her job well.
But come on man! I'm a freakin tired helpless no-where-to-go not to mention broke ( I only had 2 dolars )young student. =(
What you want me to do right? HEHEHE!
My luggage was overweight 5kg, and my hand luggage was too big. I still had a cabin bag and a laptop bag.
No matter what, I HAD to check in one of my hand carry.
I kept standing there looking sad and helpless and kept asking her HOW...( Megan’s skill )
She still dont let me pass.
Her colleague also persuaded her to let me pass cause I'm a student.
She ignored her colleague and kept asking me whether I'm alone.
I told her over and over again, I WAS ALONE!
DUH! Do you see anyone around me?! =.=
Then she asked me again "ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE ALONE?! HOW YOU CARRY ALL THIS?"
Dudeeeeee! WHY WOULD I LIE??!!!!!!
So I told her "Yeah I'm alone ok? You wanna know how I came here?!"
Since she ask so much, I told her my whole journey and how I carried my luggages.
Come on man, I might have a gay-useless-looking face but I'm no sissy.
Then she went and call her manager, A GUY.
Dude, thats a wrong move, confirm guy help me la diu... =.=
Then yeah, he helped me by deciding which bag to check in.
Then an uncle from KK lin c the counter lady. HAHA!
He said "Aiya, let her pass la, why so strict, people student ma!"
She ignored him. I continued to look helpless. HAH!
Then he said "Aiya, put her luggage with me! I help her check in! I got 10 more kg"
She ignored him. SEE! DIE DIE ALSO DONT WANNA LET ME PASS! Kiasu sia…
Then her colleague asked me to put my luggage with the uncle.
They asked me if got drugs inside or not. They said they dont want me to cause trouble to the uncle.
Im like..... HUH?! HAHAHAH! WHERE GOT DRUGS! HAHAH!
3 people against the counter lady, so at the end she told me
"Ok, I check in your bag and count it as 16 kg ok? I dont charge you"
In my heart I'm like "YES! HAHAH ! I WIN ! You LOSE !"
But my face was still helpless looking and I said "Thank you! Thanks a lot, THANK YOU !"
I went over and thank the uncle, I was sincere, cause he's so nice, unlike the counter lady.
I would really want to mention her race but dont wanna discriminate.
Then I was so tired so I went and buy my favourite peach tea!
The counter lady asked me whether I wanted to buy 2 bottles for 2 dolars.
I thought, WHOA! WORTH IT! Then I said ok ok ok ok !
After purchasing the drinks, I remembered, SHIT CANNOT BRING WATER UP THE PLANE!
In the end I had to drink 2 bottles before going in.
After that,I went into the boarding waiting room place.
All I felt like was peeing!! LoL
When I checked in, the dudes asked me.
“Owh you going KK?”
I said :”Yeah man, correct place right?”
They said :”Yeah, so you study here and stay in KK? YOU FLY BACK EVERYDAY??!!”
I’m like “ HAHAHHAH! NO!!! ”
They : “HAHAHHAHAHA”
LoL
So yeah, my whole journey was challenging & interesting. And I'm so happy! :)
KK is awesome, so are the people! :)
And having an innocent face can tipu people easily! LoL
So is wearing school uniform. AHAHA! ;)
But most of all, God blessed me, it wasn’t luck at all.
To me luck doesn’t exist, its all God’s grace
Its either He let it happen, or He doesn’t. Simple.
Ui tired sia! I miss Vc & Megan cold sia.....
Sia sia sia….. But I don’t wanna go back sia! :)




I don't want nobody if I have to cry
-Alicia Keys-




0 day! :)

I Love Them



COMING HOME!




O levels tomorrow!
Very scary.
Going home tomorrow!
VERY HAPPY!
Almost done packing.
FREAKIN HAPPY OK!
It's like YES I'M OUTTA HERE IN NO TIME!

MEGAN I CANNOT!
Where's all my skills man?
I use to be so good at that.....
Now, like... NOT INTERESTED!
HOW?!

I wish I can bring VC and Meg K back home :(

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now
I realised that I dont like you, I like the life you give me ;)





Kill It To Never See It Again Rather Than Beat It & Still See It Again & Again.
-Jordan-




1 day!

Barakekek By The Singapore River.




Ooooooooo whatchu say?
Chobibit barakekek!
Yesterday we went to bugis, Megan wanted to buy stuff.
But ended up empty handed.
At least she helped save her parents money that way.
Then we decided to go to clarke quay to chill chill.
We walked pass cold storage and i'm like :
"Ei, lets buy those grapes and eat by the river!" ( Just jokin )
But ended up really buying.
Megan chose GLLAAPES
VC chose stawwbellyss & romatosss
I chose none other than RONGANNSS!
Yummmyyyy...
Then we sat at our usual spot and ate the flluits that we bought X)
The breeze was amazing! So was the view!
So many tourists walking around.
A few took pictures of us.
The photo should turn out nice, not because of us la!
But if they made it into black and white plus us and the background.
SHOULD HAVE ASKED THEM TO SHOW US!
They might have thought that we are singaporeans.
Damn! We made Singapore look cool & we're not even part of this place!
Grrrrrrr!
Bah, then we went back to bugis to meet ma bro!
Shisha shisha, this time dint bingung.
LAST OUTING FOR US FOR THE YEAR!

Bryant :

The things that I always want, it will NEVER come to me BUT the things i always don't want, it will always come to me!!! Pity me =((

WenYi :

why dont u try wanting the things you dont want and dont wanting the things you want so you will get what you want? hahahahahha...
( It kinda make sense after I thought about it. )

Someone Tell Me This Has Been A Dream



Going back this time definitely feels different.
Its no longer the same excitement.
Its no longer the same jumpy feeling.
This time it's strange.
This time I'm scared.

Feeling how I feel each time I think of the days that will past when I'm at home.
Each day that passes will only mean that one day less of my time at home.
Each day that passes will only mean that it will be over soon, and I would have to come back here.
I'd rather stay in Singapore than go back home and having to come back here just to face another year in that freako school.

To say this is not fair to the people that have been so nice to me this whole year.
Thanks yeah?
Classmates, I know you stalk my blog ;)
School could have been worst if it weren't for you guys.
So yeah, thanks.
And boarding school people, you know who you are.
Thanks too.
Without you guys, the days here would be like WHOA! LoL
Having said all this, I STILL HATE IT HERE! HAHA! Sorry. =)
But I love you guys. X)


Any the way, I'm gonna freaking abuse my time at home so badly that time would want to stop because it's too tired chasing after me asking me to slow down.
And best of all, this holiday will not include you!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Go service your bitch.




4 more days




After Being Blinded For So Long.
I am Back

Importance Of Every Individual.




My friend Msn-ed me saying :
SOS!
Wen Yi, HELP!
Impact = effect?
And I answered him briefly, NO.
Thankfully, I instantly checked the dictionary , and it says impact = effect.
I got back to my friend right away, telling him he's right.
He told me this:
Cilaka! You know 30% for my essay depends on your YES or NO?

Then it struck me.
How insignificant you think your opinion is, it may be the most important thing to someone else.
So, dont hesitate to voice out your opinions, positive ones of course, cause we'll never know who it might help.
How insignificant you think you are, to someone else you might be the most important thing.
So, dont look down on yourself, thinking you're nobody, thinking that no one sees you.
Every decision we make affects someone without us knowing.
Usually, it affects the people who love you & care for you the most.

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world"
This quote might be cliche but it means so much & it's so true.

I, or rather we, have been concentrating so much on people that don't love or even give a damn about us that we totally forgot all those that would give the world to us.
We took them for granted & therefore somehow pushed some away.
It's now, time to return the love that they had shown us all this time.
Your parents.
Your siblings
Your friends.
They deserve it.







Don't Be Sad Over Those Who Think Of You Only When Luck Deserts Them.
-WenYi-





5 days

I Have No Love For Them Like How I Loved You Guys


Some places brings out the best in you.
Some just kills the person you were.
I guess it's the latter for me.
I need out.
This is just not who I want to be.
Those that knew me, judge for yourself.
What have I become?
Someone, just get me out of here.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

People who say that they miss you when you both don't even have a history nor you both barely even know each other.
And they never look you up nor chat with you before and suddenly starts talking to you everyday.

How much faker can they be?
Come on man, who you trying to fool?
You think I'm 5 is it?
-.-
If you wanna lie at least do it professionally.
At least say something that I might believe right.
It's just too obvious.
Sorry dude, fail.



6 days

Yeah man, why don't they?
LoL

Hello?




It's weird how he never seem to admire how or maybe wonder why he's friends are so happy because they're committed to a relationship.
Is he even normal?
What happened to that dude anyway man?
WHO KILLED YOU HUH!?

He will always be that lonely boy who fakes a smile in photos.
He will always be the one taking photos with different girls in different photos, never the same constant girl.
He will always be the one who mess things up and blame others.
Never seem to be able to settle down.
Well yeah, maybe you should try acting like an adult that you always claim to be?

At the end of the day, I cant help but picturing you sitting alone by the bar.
Wondering why you had to lie to all those girls.
Wondering why no one trusted you anymore.
Wondering why all your skills that used to sweep people off their feet isn't working anymore.

Dude, you had a friend who trusted you all along.
She gave up so many times cause she was too disappointed.
But she forgave you and tried again.
Just wanted to be there as a friend, to help you see what you're getting yourself into.

She's freakin tired now man.
You broke the trust too many times, gone too far this time.
She tried everything to make you realise you're doing stupid stuff!
Now, she has decided that maybe you have to help yourself.
Maybe you need to make every possible mistakes to wake yourself up.
When that happens, she will only be there to watch you make it and hope that you learn from it man.
She tried man, she really tried so very hard because she saw who you really are when you did not.
She believes that you have a good soul deep inside you.
Just don't understand why you dont see it.






Shoulder pads may come & go,
But a friend is forever.
Because even when you're not sure where you're headed,
It helps to know you're not going there alone.
No one has all the answers,
And sometimes the best we can do is just apologise & let the past be the past.
Other times, we need to look to the future & know that even when we think we've seen it all,
Life can still surprise us, & we can still surprise ourselves.

-GG-

Halloween!




How did you celebrate it?
I dont really "CELEBRATE" it, I just take advantage of it to have some fun.
So yeah, a few of us planned to buy freakin scary masks then hide somewhere in the bushes and scare pedestrians.
We bought the masks, But it started to rain in the evening so we had to postpone, hoping that the rain will stop.
But it would be double the fun scaring people in the rain plus thunder and lightning no?
Din't wanna do it though, getting caught under the rain is so troublesome.
The rain stopped about 8pm, and we made our way out.
The guys manage to scare some people but mostly just gave a blank look.
MISSION FAIL!
So we decided to head down to orchard road to join the crowd.
You know Singapore, ever so happening.
When we got there, we saw many people in their costumes.
Many stared at our masks too.
Some asked for photos with us.
Then we just chilled, walked along orchard road, checking out other people's costumes and taking photos.
We met this bunch from acting school or something like that.
They were walking around taking photos with random people.
They asked us to join, but kinda sien so we went our own way.
At about 1130pm we headed back.
Nothing much but yeah, at least we got a chance to see halloween in Singapore.

New scholars are making their way to here recently.
Everytime I see them I kinda feel sorry for them.
They dont know what they've got themselves into man!
They really dont know.
They've got themselves into deep shit man!
If someone were to save them before they made the decision.
But oh well, some people love it here.
Everyone's different.
:)





I Never Regret My Actions But The Only 2 Things I Cant Help Regretting Is Taking You For Granted & Leaving KK.








Yay! Its November!
9 more days!

Christmas!




I really really cant wait to go home!
I thought I had no reason to go home no more after what happened.
But what the heck man!
My friends and family is all I want & need!
They're the only people that has ever made me joyful & they were there through it all.

Today our school held its Christmas Service!
I KNOW RIGHT!
2 months in advance.
Talk about kiasu.
Neh, actually its because of the school holiday :)
It was enjoyable really.
I loved singing all the familiar christmas carols and experiencing the familiar festive seasons atmosphere.
Though it made me miss lok yuk cause they showed this video of all the photos from activities carried out this year, but yeah, I enjoyed the rest of it.
I can never let go of the idea that I missed my senior year, the year I have been looking forward to so long.
The last year & last chance that I have to make awesome memories with friends.

But singing all those carols reminded me of caroling with the youths every year.
It made me so excited to go home!
Made me so excited for christmas!
I wanna sing those songs over & over again at each house we visit.
It's so fun!
But if christmas comes fast, it would also mean that I would be leaving again.
I don't want that too.
See how sometimes we get what we want & dont want at the same time?
That's called a balance.
And that why life is fair.
LoL
Cause I got what I want, and dont want.
-.-



With Every Step, You Climb Another Mountain.
-Kris Allen-





12 days

Deja Vu




Going to Orchard, seeing all the christmas decorations, seeing the same huge christmas tree that stands tall and proud in the centre of Takashimaya's lobby every christmas.
Seeing all these is like deja vu.
I remember when I first came to Singapore last year right after christmas.
Mum brought me around before really settling down as a student.
I still remember I felt more like a tourist than a student.

Seeing all these made me realise how fast one year has past.
I'm really here now.
It's not an illusion no more.
What I have been going through is real.

Coming back next year after my one and a half month holiday will make me feel like how I felt when I first came.
It will remind me of all the things I went through.
I know I will miss my home more than ever.
I know that I will still regret this.
I know that I would choose another if turning back time is ever possible.

But coming back next year, at least I know I won't feel as lost as I did last year.
I know I would already have friends here.
At least I'm familiar with the surrounding.
And at least I have a singapore sim card? LoL
Most importantly, coming back next year, I will have an aim, goal & motive for my stay here.
I'm not gonna waste my opportunity no more.
But school, this doesnt mean I'm gonna love you, because I have a plan.
And Soo Wen Yi, she plays by her own rule.



Healing Begins When We Openly Declare To The Lord That We Freely Release Our Loved One-Or Whatever The Cause Of Our Grief-Into His Care.
-Cyndi Foster-


We Can't Choose To Go Only To The Easy Places,
Or The Places Where The Results Are Always What We Want Them To Be.
-Cyndi Foster-




13 days.